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Blue Hour

by Mothica

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1.
NOW 02:59
INTRO: You said I get you higher than the ceiling oh I said I'll believe it when I see it Up and down, you’re messing with my feelings Tell me now or I won't let you keep it VERSE: Drifting, i got my hands all tied up with the rope you placed around my neck pictures of me a fool in the light but it’s not my fault it’s my fight PRECHORUS: holy in the dark, a saintlike sound and if you want me bright you better leave now CHORUS: NOW NOW NOW don’t get too close to me NOW NOW NOW you won’t like what you see SECOND VERSE: sorry, i’m not the delicate one i put up a silhouette what you can’t see i know that you want to pull me apart me apart at the seams but i’m lonely in the heart watch me breakdown is it pretty now? CHORUS: don’t get too close to me you won’t like what you see NOW NOW NOW don’t get too close to me NOW NOW NOW you won’t like what you see
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VERSE: Hate when you ask how I’m doing I know that you’re just assuming I’m better now, not bleeding out Get outta bed on a good day Lately that’s all I can do, hey I go through hell, to hide myself PRECHORUS: I think about new ways to hurt me But don’t want my mother to see It’s not that I feel undeserving Just blame it on the chemistry That’s why CHORUS: I can’t cry Im too anxious Restless mind I can’t shake this Said I’m fine but we both know I’m faking I’m not feeling numb, I’m just feeling everything at once SECOND VERSE: Whatever I do I can’t slow down Please don’t leave me alone now Cuz when I stop, my demons talk I’m coming off apathetic I play it off like it’s an aesthetic Clearly I care too much, but I’m fooling everyone PRECHORUS: I think about new ways to hurt me But don’t want my mother to see It’s not that I feel undeserving Just blame it on the chemistry That’s why CHORUS: I can’t cry Im too anxious Restless mind I can’t shake this Said I’m fine but we both know I’m faking I’m not feeling numb, I’m just feeling everything at once
3.
Blackout 02:48
VERSE: oh they tried their best to warn me (tried to warn me) that you would only turn me blue (turn me blue) but nothing could’ve stopped me (nothing could stop me) from falling right into you PRECHORUS: hold me down i’ll do anything you tell me to CHORUS: baby when i black out i’m not coming back down i’ve always been my own worst enemy blame it on my own anxiety SECOND VERSE: I can barely be around you (be around you) its the hardest thing i’ll ever do (ever do) is learn to live without you (live without you) cause i’ve got better things to do PRECHORUS: let me out after everything you’ve put me through CHORUS: baby when i black out i’m not coming back down i’ve always been my own worst enemy blame it on my own anxiety BRIDGE: i’m losing my magic nothing can calm me down in love with my madness until I drown CHORUS: baby when i black out i’m not coming back down i’ve always been my own worst enemy blame it on my own anxiety
4.
Hands Off 03:08
HANDS OFF LYRICS VERSE: all of my friends don’t know where i’ve been cause i’m getting good at lying maybe i’m in denial I feel too much but it’s never enough I’m coming out of hiding nobody else invited PRECHORUS: you know i’ve been getting to know a new side of myself what can you do? can’t even get through the night yeah I could use some help CHORUS: i’d be down for sweet talk so much I could say do whatever you want we could misbehave baby leave the light on i wanna see your face keep your eyes on me keep your eyes on me but your hands off SECOND VERSE: don’t get ahead of yourself I know what you want yeah I know what you’re implying there’s something about the timing so don’t get too close we’re taking it slow you touch me like your impatient it’s getting complicated PRECHORUS: you know i’ve been getting to know a new side of myself what can you do? I can’t even get through the night yeah I could use some help CHORUS: i’d be down for sweet talk so much I could say do whatever you want we could misbehave baby leave the light on i wanna see your face keep your eyes on me keep your eyes on me but your hands off BRIDGE: cause I want, I want control but you take, you take and I never know what to say, what to say so I don’t, so I don’t…. CHORUS: i’d be down for sweet talk so much I could say do whatever you want we could misbehave baby leave the light on i wanna see your face keep your eyes on me keep your eyes on me but your hands off
5.
VICES 02:57
[Verse 1] Feel like I'm just passing by It's not love, it's just a guy And it's got me feeling right for the night But in the morning when he's gone I'm alone with all my thoughts So I gotta drink 'em up til I'm numb [Pre-Chorus] And ooh, it's never enough Pass me the cup, got nowhere to run So pour me another one I'm taking it all, I'm getting lost I'm making a fool of myself with all these [Chorus] Vices, I really don't know why I'm like this And I just don't care what the price is 'Cause I need these vices (Oh) If it's not drugs, it's drinks If it's not drinks, it's things If it's not things, it's people, places I don't wanna be These vices [Verse 2] Is it okay I'm not okay? I don't sleep too much these days And I hate being awake when the sun's out Lock my door and shut the blinds They can't see my bloodshot eyes I got habits I can't hide in the light [Pre-Chorus] And oh, it's never enough Pass me the cup, got nowhere to run So pour me another one I'm taking it all, I'm getting lost I'm making a fool of myself with all these [Chorus] Vices, I really don't know why I'm like this And I just don't care what the price is 'Cause I need these vices (Oh) If it's not drugs, it's drinks If it's not drinks, it's things If it's not things, it's people, places I don't wanna be These vices And I just don't care what the price is I'm tryna fill up the silence with all these vices (Oh) [Bridge] Burning through a cigarette Got somebody in my bed But I'm still just in my head, in my head And all the signs are turning red And I'm starting to regret, and I'm starting to regret, to regret these [Chorus] Vices, I really don't know why I'm like this And I just don't care what the price is 'Cause I need these vices (Oh) If it's not drugs, it's drinks If it's not drinks, it's things If it's not things, it's people, places I don't wanna be These vices And I just don't care what the price is I'm tryna fill up the silence with all these vices (Oh)
6.
Blue Hour 03:37
VERSE: I feel so high not being high anymore left my ties and bloodshot eyes all over the floor i felt so low yeah i’ve been here before now i’m taking back what’s mine it never was yours PRECHORUS: like i’m forever fifteen Oklahoma City everybody grew up so fast you wouldn’t believe all the trouble i’ve seen, oh no i’m never coming back CHORUS: i’m looking for my blue, blue hour i’m looking for my blue, blue hour I should be so cold stories never told it’s the strangest feeling with all this new, new power SECOND VERSE: I don’t know why why it took me so long wasted all this time on temporary love bring me back to life back to where I belong cause its worth the sacrifice to finally be strong PRECHORUS: like i’m forever fifteen Oklahoma City everybody grew up so fast you wouldn’t believe all the trouble i’ve seen, oh no i’m never coming back CHORUS: i’m looking for my blue, blue hour i’m looking for my blue, blue hour I should be so cold stories never told it’s the strangest feeling with all this new, new power BRIDGE: i’ve been searching forever, look what I found i’m diving deeper inside myself all of this treasure lying around I see it now i’m looking for my blue, blue hour i’m looking for my blue, blue hour i’m looking for my blue, blue hour CHORUS: i’m looking for my blue, blue hour I should be so cold stories never told it’s the strangest feeling with all this new, new power
7.
Hungover 03:20
VERSE: blue eyes wasted midnight basement let’s pretend we’re somewhere else PRECHORUS: how did I, how did I get here? don’t think I can, think I can stay here i’m making friends with all of my nightmares i’ll pour one out for everyone i’ve been CHORUS: say goodbye to the comedown wasted nights you only leave me hungover over you you only leave me hungover over you yeah sold me lies by the bottle every time you only leave me hungover over you you only leave me hungover over you VERSE 2: double vision fake friends cheap gin i’m a danger to myself PRECHORUS: how did I, how did I get here? don’t think I can, think I can stay here i’m making friends with all of my nightmares i’ll pour one out for everyone i’ve been CHORUS: say goodbye to the comedown wasted nights you only leave me hungover over you you only leave me hungover over you yeah sold me lies by the bottle every time you only leave me hungover over you you only leave me hungover over you BRIDGE: and in the morning I don’t wanna be myself so I tried to drown myself maybe it’s a cry for help CHORUS: say goodbye to the comedown wasted nights you only leave me hungover over you you only leave me hungover over you yeah sold me lies by the bottle every time you only leave me hungover over you you only leave me hungover over you
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R.I.F.P. 03:51
VERSE: Wish that I could say I’m not dancing on your grave But thinking bout the shit you put me through To hell with you So long and goodnight Traded darkness for the light Cause everything I had I gave to you I wanted to CHORUS: Rest in fucking peace to all my issues I’d be lying if I had to say I miss you When I‘m with you I feel numb I still taste you on my tongue But now I tell myself I’ve have enough Rest in fucking peace to all my problems Cause reaching for the bottle couldn’t solve them If the damage has been done I can’t be the only one So I just tell myself I’ve had enough SECOND VERSE: Bittersweet relief Without you next to me Funny how it all just disappears When you’re not here Faking self control Like everyone I know Funny how they all just sing along Your siren song CHORUS: Rest in fucking peace to all my issues I’d be lying if I had to say I miss you When I‘m with you I feel numb I still taste you on my tongue But now I tell myself I’ve have enough Rest in fucking peace to all my problems Cause reaching for the bottle couldn’t solve them If the damage has been done I can’t be the only one So I just tell myself I’ve had enough BRIDGE: Since you went away I haven’t needed saving They say I’m being brave Cause I’m good without you lately Since you went away I haven’t needed saving They say I’m being brave Cause I’m good without you lately CHORUS: Rest in fucking peace to all my issues I’d be lying if I had to say I miss you When I‘m with you I feel numb I still taste you on my tongue But now I tell myself I’ve have enough Rest in fucking peace to all my problems Cause reaching for the bottle couldn’t solve them If the damage has been done I can’t be the only one So I just tell myself I’ve had enough
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oh god 03:05
VERSE: oh god what did I do i’m out of control again woke up blacker then blue probably lost a friend PRECHORUS: my throats so fucking dry from saying sorry wake up a different person in the morning forget every lesson daddy taught me i never learn, I just make it worse CHORUS: oh god, what have I done? what did I say last night? did I play the fool did I make you believe I was having a good time? cause i’ve been drinking all of my emotions until i’m sick until i’m broken oh god, what have I done? what have I done? SECOND VERSE: oh no, should’ve stayed home but it’s hard to be alone sometimes dark thoughts got me so low i’d do anything to clear my mind CHORUS: oh god, what have I done? what did I say last night? did I play the fool did I make you believe I was having a good time? cause i’ve been drinking all of my emotions until i’m sick until i’m broken oh god, what have I done? what have I done? bridge: wasted, all the nights I missed poison on my lips, all alone i’m done i’m done hiding it i’m done fighting it on my own oh god what have I done what did I say last night did I play the fool did I make you believe I was having a good time cause i’ve been drinking all of my emotions until i’m sick until i’m broken oh god what have I done? what have I done?
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nice to meet you never seen you here before you look familiar have we ever met before? I can’t remember the person I was back in november covered in blood but there’s nothing left now I wish that there was now I’m sober I can feel everything all over you kept on numbing me
11.
SPIRAL 02:55
VERSE: somebody’s gonna love me even when I don’t love myself somebody’s thinking of me even when I don’t trust myself some nights I get lonely sometimes I get worried if i’m writing this story all wrong PRECHORUS: You’ve been suffering yeah, I know what it’s like to feel the bitter end You’re not alone tonight CHORUS: even when i’m upside down don’t know where to go when i’m lost and found even when i’m upside down I know I’ll be just fine even when i’m upside down I cant even feel i’m so numb right now even when i’m upside down I know I’ll be alright SECOND VERSE: I don’t know when it started always felt this way, and it feels so low call me heavy hearted i’ve been overthinking cause I can’t let go with nobody to talk to i’ve always been see through I know you feel it too know you feel it too i know PRECHORUS: You’ve been suffering yeah, I know what it’s like to feel the bitter end You’re not alone tonight CHORUS: even when i’m upside down don’t know where to go when i’m lost and found even when i’m upside down I know I’ll be just fine even when i’m upside down I cant even feel i’m so numb right now even when i’m upside down I know I’ll be alright OUTRO: oh i’m not afraid to spiral oh it’s all about the cycle know i’ll be alright won’t give up the fight know i’ll make it out on the other side i’m not afraid to spiral oh it’s all about the cycle know i’ll be alright won’t give up the fight know i’ll make it out on the other side i’m not afraid to spiral oh it’s all about the cycle know i’ll be alright won’t give up the fight know i’ll make it out on the other side
12.
crash 03:17
CRASH LYRICS CHORUS: crash over the edge, over the edge crash not just pretend, not just pretend crash never again, never again that’s what I tell myself i’m looking for something else VERSE: don’t know what I came here for sitting on the ocean floor and I can’t even swim cause I can’t feel my limbs will it always feel this way? if i’m not numb I feel afraid i’m barely keeping up will I be enough? PRECHORUS: baby just dive freefall in baby don’t hide let it begin Oh, let it begin And I don’t wanna CHORUS: crash over the edge, over the edge crash not just pretend, not just pretend crash never again, never again that’s what I tell myself i’m looking for something else SECOND VERSE: I left you with the chemicals I put you on a pedestal alone in paradise you were always right PRECHORUS: you said baby just dive freefall in baby don’t hide let it begin let it begin And I don’t wanna… CHORUS: crash over the edge, over the edge (i’m not crashing) crash not just pretend, not just pretend (I don’t wanna) crash never again, never again (i’m not crashing) that’s what I tell myself i’m looking for something else OUTRO: I am attracted to the light And at times it can be destructive But sometimes change is required to grow And right after sunset, the sky is painted a deep, rich shade of blue That reminds me why I’m still here And why I shouldn’t give up Because without all the pain I’ve felt, I wouldn’t appreciate the beauty that came afterwards This is my blue hour

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released August 27, 2020

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